It’s been 3 weeks since I’ve had to take a Klonopin. By the time this posts, it’ll have been 4. I’m sure part of it has to do with not having to see anyone, but most of it is because I’m so much more relaxed in this house.
In fact I’m so relaxed, that I’ve been sleeping for up to 12 hours a night! Normally I get 10, 11 on a good day, but lately I’ve been going to bed at 8:45-9:00 and waking up between 8:30 and 9:00! Even husband has noticed that he’s been sleeping better, and we’re sure it’s the new house.
And now things are back to how they were. No contact with husband’s family. They actually came over the other day because mother in law was with them, and she hasn’t seen the new house yet. They bustled in, barely said hi to me, went around talking with husband the entire time, and bustled out without a goodbye. I guess last month was all for nothing. I thought we had made some steps forward, but apparently not.
Another big deal for me, I actually have been calling and texting with my sister-in-law! She had called me about going to a movie and it just went from there. I even went and asked her if she wanted to go shopping! It sounds so simple and like a mundane and easy thing to do that most people wouldn’t think twice about, but for me it’s a huge deal! I have to say I’m pretty proud of myself.
I did something I’m a bit proud of, even if it wasn’t anything big or important. For me it was a bit of a big deal. I reached out to my mom and asked her if she wanted to watch a movie marathon with me. She lives about 8 hours away from me, so we would watch them in our own homes, and text during the movies. She, of course, was elated!
We’re going to watch The Thorn Birds. I haven’t seen it in years, and after reading another book by the same author for my book club, I had an itch to watch it. My mom obviously has the movies as well, and I thought it would be kind of fun. We used to play computer games over the phone, ages ago, and we both enjoyed that. Thorn Birds is something special between the two of us, I watched it with her when I was still little, (probably not the best choice of movies for a child), and we both loved them! Over the years whenever we saw them somewhere, we’d rent them and watch together, until I found them on Amazon and bought them for her.
I think it’ll be a fun thing to do, and hopefully we can find another series to watch together like that another time. Maybe we’ll make a thing of it. Who knows?
It’s always nice when my niece and nephews from out-of-town come to visit. Unfortunately I don’t see them very much when they’re here. We’re either not involved, or I get too anxious to go visit. But now that they all have either iPods or phones, I can text them or interact via social media, specifically snapchat.
The older kids all have instagram as well, but my younger niece only has snapchat. It’s actually been really nice the last few days being able to chat with her on there. She tells me what she’s been doing during the day (putting away laundry), and sends me silly pictures of herself. She’s such a cute kid! It’s nice to be able to try to get to know her, since we didn’t get a chance because they moved away when she was only two.
Christmas was good. We went to my sister in law’s, and had a really nice time. Until we both realized why we don’t play games with her husband anymore. (That’s a rather long and ridiculous story that I probably won’t tell.) The week after is a bit of a blur. My husband was off work for almost two weeks, and I saw him for a total of two days. Two.
Between his brother and his family being in town, and dealing with the old house, he was just never around. I didn’t have it in me anymore to visit people, so I mostly just stayed home alone. I did go for dinner at his parents with everyone else, but that was the last of my visiting. I really needed the alone time, and just to not deal with anymore people.
I spent New Years Eve, you guessed it, alone. Husband went to his sisters, mostly out of obligation to be honest, and I stayed home watching Netflix. All the alone time was starting to get to me though. New Years Day wasn’t great and husband could tell. We spent the day cuddled on the couch together and that made things better. It’s funny what a little contact will do to a mood. Now we’re back to routine, and I’m happy about that.
Now we’re finally back to routine. Husband has gone back to work after almost two weeks off, and I have the house to myself to get back to my routine. Except now, I have to start a new routine. Cleaning. I hate cleaning. At least this house was already clean when we moved in, and it’s not so overwhelming to keep it up.