Today I’m having major anxiety about tomorrow. I have to go to my in-laws for a birthday dinner. I really hate that they cause me this much anxiety, but I’m not comfortable around them anymore. I don’t feel welcome or wanted. No one talks to me anymore or wants me around. Today is a bad day, and I fear tomorrow will be as well.
This was written a month ago.
I decided to practice self-care and not go.
Sometimes I hate my brain chemistry.